Inner Wounds

I hate myself and what I’ve become.
My feelings are gone and my mind is numb.
I’m a loser: Life kicks me around.
I’m an idiot: Life brings me down.
I’m pathetic: I feel sorry for myself.
I’m troubled: I’ve placed my psyche on a shelf.
I live my life the best that I can.
I’d be much happier if it were not for man.
I used to believe life was fair.
I don’t anymore and I just don’t care.
In today’s world it’s hard to get ahead.
I think I’d rather much be dead.
Because I’m a nobody it’s plain to see.
And just yesterday, I gave up on a world who gave up on me.
Why do I walk this place alone?
And why do I feel like soulless clone?
I’m worthless, what good am I to anyone?
I’m tired, I really feel as though I am done.
I’m a shadow; they know I’m there but didn’t hear what I said.
I’m a corpse, I feel as though I am already dead.
I feel as though my life is destroyed.
I’m looking for substance to fill this void.
Walking this primitive planet with no direction.
Trying to hide my feelings and give them some protection.
I’ve tried to be accepted, but I was denied.
I won’t even count all the times that I’ve cried.
Standing alone, dying inside.
There’s no life left in me, my brain is fried.
Day after day and week after week.
It seems like my life has always been bleak.
This world is slowly killing me.
This world is my divine enemy.
Suffering, I have spoken.
Pain, like my sternum has been cracked open.
Demons pouring out and running quite wild.
Looking up at me with sadistic smiles.
Clawing and tearing at my skin.
Trying to get back inside again.
Pressing down upon my brain.
And making me feel a bit more insane.
I stand alone in the middle of the night.
Soaking up the mystical moon’s light.
It sends a chill up my spine.
That haunting light is all mine.
It seems to heal my inner wounds.
Makes me realize I’m not completely doomed.
Though the wounds will never quite be healed.
I guess my fate has been sealed.
Sealed with a sullen and deadly kiss.
And a great point I quite did miss.
A kiss that’s from beyond the grave.
Hypnotizing me and making me a slave
Macabre games were played on me
As if I was on display for all the world to see
They laugh, I cry so place me in my tomb
I’m forever scarred with sever inner wounds.